wanted: life manager

position: full time life manager

responsibilities: cook, clean, organize calendar, set appointments, teach, counsel, care for children, make crafts, exercise, read Bible, pray, learn new things, hostess, cater, kiss boo-boos, encourage
pay rate: volunteer

position available now

send CV immediately

I’m exhausted. It hit me last night as my youngest was fighting sleep. I really wanted to go hang out with some of our friends but if I leave when Aliyah is awake she screams for an hour or until she collapses from exhaustion, whichever comes first. And it was late and she really needed to be sleeping. I was fed up and grumpy and it became very clear that I’m feeling a bit lost and all I want is someone to take over my life for awhile.

I’m generally apathetic and ambivalent right now about everything and if someone gave me the opportunity, I’d be very likely to run off to a monastery for a good long period of time.

As an introvert, I need time to myself, time alone - not an unreasonable amount but some. But as a social person, I often forget and as a perfectionist overachiever, type A, I struggle with being an introvert. It has only been in the past few years that I have come to terms with the fact that I am not an extrovert and being an introvert has inherent challenges when combined with the other parts of my personality.

I also forget how physically tiring it is to think and process and plan and worry about things. I pretty much never stop doing those things so even when I’m just “at home” with seemingly nothing to do, I get worn out. Being “in charge” of something is draining even when everything is going well…and much more so when it’s not. And I have a few things that I’m “in charge of”, not the least of which is running our household.

This seems to happen to me once or twice a year with consistent regularity. I know what needs to be done about it, but right now I lack the motivation to do it. So, anyone want the job of living my life? I’d be ever so grateful.

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